some ponderings...

Man...I have really changed the last few years. I went from being a crazy Baptist girl who was sort of anti-catholic...to whatever I am now...A pretend Catholic...weird...I remember I was at Applebee's with Josh and Tyana in the bar area when people from my old church came in. They saw me drinking. It was sort of a freeing experience. I mean, don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being a crazy Baptist. It's just not for me. I'm not quite sure what's right for me. I love mass...but I have some hang ups on actually becoming Catholic. I still don't think I can say that the Catholic church is the one true church. Plus...I may be a bit too liberal for them...who knows. I had a priest ask me on Sunday if I was still becoming Catholic. It was sort of funny. But anyway...back to how I have changed...I used to be hardcore into the Christian music scene. Now...not so much. I will turn it to KLOVE every once in a while just for a good jam out session that will annoy anybody around me. I was against tattoos...after all the Bible says not to get one. Now I have two. I thought people with nose and eyebrow piercings were bad...now not so much. (obviously). I was crazy into Bible Quiz...actually I probably still would be because I like that stuff. What else? I was at church Sunday morning, evening and wednesday nights...and I thought if I wasn't there...it was bad. I had the perfect Christian girl front on. I didn't cuss. People at Chuck E. Cheese used to try to get me to cuss. Now I do...see: SHIT! I was sure I would never ever drink alcohol in my life. Now...I drink. Not heavily but I still do...and I like it. I love going to the bars...I love gambling...you guys have seen my dance video. Some of you would be very surprised by me if you would have met me a few years ago... haha...and the thing is...I am very comfortable with where I am. That is very suprising to me. I still don't know where I am going...except for not back to my old crazy conservative Baptist ways...but I am happy with where I am now...I mean come on...where would I be if I couldn't drink my kick ass tequilla?