Friday, September 30, 2005

fall is la la

I love fall!!!!!! It is my favorite season by far. I was so excited yesterday to have to wear a sweater and a jacket. I love it. I love to layer and I am glad it is time to start that back up again!!!! I love the smell. I love the air. I love all the leaves. The only thing I don't like about fall is how short it is. I wish it could go on all year long. Yeah...alright. So, I am going to go camping again this weekend! I never have camped in my life and now here I am...going two weeks in a row. I can't wait to sit around the campfire and enjoy this nice fall weather. I am going with Meredith and Josh and some of their friends. Meredith and Josh are cool people. Meredith makes me laugh. She is quite opinionated. Oh...and Nathan is going. Nathan is the chemistry guy. Apparantly he likes hanging out with me. (That's cool with me...I like hanging out with him.) He's a nerd....but a cute nerd. There aren't too many of us out there. Alright...I strayed from fall...or maybe I could say I fell away from fall? Layering clothes. That is the best thing ever. I think that guys look super hot in layered clothes...thus...fall is a good time for me. Hooded sweaters...oh yeah...that's a huge weakness...guys look really cute in them. So fall...Brown County, leaves different colors...candy cider...yes...I guess what I really wanted to say was that I LOVE FALL!!!!!

moving on... Matt...this post was going to be for you...but I couldnt get my USB ports to work on my I couldn't upload your pictures. Sorry :( I will do it again sometime.

Ok...I am going to finish this by asking you some questions:

(I think I am going to do this on some posts for a while...that is until I get bored with it)

1. Who are you?
2. How did we meet?

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

sometimes I start smiling and i just can't stop.

Sigh...:) it's been a pretty cool week.

*Ok. Moving on. So life is random? What??? Ok. Maybe I agree with you, but could you please elaborate. I remember back in August when Matt came to visit me. Matt is my Princeton friend. He is smart. He was telling me how one of his professors thinks that you can figure out a person by studying their social web. Matt said he didn't even think he could begin to draw my social web. So there...maybe that means I am impossible to figure out.

Intelligent Design

Alright. Here we go. Asher had an interesting post on his blog. I suggest that you click here to read it. I think I attempted to talk a little bit about this a few posts back. I failed miserably. Here are my thoughts now. I am a huge fan of evolution. It is probably one of my favorite areas of science. Maybe this is because I love to play with DNA. I don't know. I love Darwin. Now all conservative Christians reading this...insert gasp here _____ . The truth is, I don't really care how the world was created. I mean I do care, but not enough to sit around and worry about whether or not the Bible has it pegged exactly right. Maybe this is the hard thing about being a scientist. I think faith is much harder. that take the "God created the world in 7 days" approach...that's fine with me...that's what you believe...go with it. I can't say that I think the days are literaly. Dude...they are GOD days. I think that the word they actually used in the Hebrew (was it Hebrew Matt? You are my genius language scholar) was length of time. Another problem I have is that the seven day approach was given in Genesis 1, in Genesis 2, it gives a whole other view of creation. In Genesis 1, the earth was covered in water. In Genesis 2, the earth was dry. Plus, both accounts are nearly exactly like other Pagan accounts of creation. I'm a little too lazy to look it up right now...but I know one of them was the Babylonian account. Ok...I think I am straying from my orginal point. Sorry. I do that pretty frequently. Let me get back on...

Intelligent design? Do I believe there is a God? Hell yeah... Do I believe he is fully capable of creating this world...hell yeah. How did he do it? It's not that big of a deal to me...and it doesn't make my faith in him any stronger or any weaker.

Evolution? Is it any coincidence that mitochondria and cholorplasts look like bacteria? I don't think so. Is it any coincidence that we have the ability to adapt? I don't think so.

I think that Christians need to stop worrying about trying to prove how the world was created. I am not sure that this is the ticket to winning people to Christ.

So teaching creationism in public schools... does it belong in the Bible literature class or in the science class? Again, I look back at the excorcism of Emily Rose. There were two very different camps of beliefs. The God side and the science side. Can those two come together? With how our public school system is set up, I don't think so. I do know that not much time is even spent on evolution in the public school classroom. Why not spend just a few more minutes mentioning another theory? We learn about different historical theories in the sciences that made absolutely no sense. So even if intelligent design makes no sense to you...why not throw it out there? We learn about Greek mystical gods...I am pretty sure that they get some mention even in science. So what is the big deal about throwing the Yahweh God out there for a few? They are both teach them as that. Now microevolution...that's good stuff. that deserves all the mention it can get. Some people freeze up at the word evolution. They don't want to hear anything about anything that pertains to evolution. All I have to say about this is "know your enemies." <-- great line from my population biology teacher (Dr. Hancock).

If that made sense...great. If it didn't... I'm sorry. It's early. It's so early even that I'm not going to spell check or grammar check...(evil laugh here)

So what if I started considering myself an agnostic? Can I do that even if I still have a full believe in God...I just can't figure anything else out? How would the Baptists take that? Can I be an agnostic Christian? Oh well...I hate labels...whatever. I just stay confused.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Happy Birthday to Google...

I guess today is Google's 7th birthday. Be sure to send them a card. I like google. Why? I like their search engine...I like blogger...I like gmail...they are just sweet.

Eric. If you are reading this...comment and let me know that you have your phone...or you don't have your phone and you need my number...or just call me tonight...whatever. I heard about someone taking your phone from Chemistry guy.

Chemistry guy (Nathan) that's random. We leave Pepper's...chemistry guy is not too far behind I guess. Eric sees them and asks N's friend if he could use his phone. N's friend says no but N lets Eric use his phone. N then realizes that Eric was my friend...Eric said oh! your the chemistry guy or something to that effect and said he would put a good word in for me. Is he deserving of a good word, Eric? :)

Soo...N called me last night. He asked me out on a date. That doesn't happen often. Of course, there really hasn't been an oppurtunity for that in a loong time. I ended up talking to him forever. It was sort of cool. I guess I will talk more on him later if he's worth it. Asher, I think that you would approve of his music taste...You guys will have to talk sometime. (again...only if he is worth it)

I went camping this weekend. It was the first time in my life that I ever went camping. I had fun. The only issue was when I woke up in the middle of the night I had to use the bathroom, and I didn't want to go through all the trouble to get out of the I had to wait for morning. Matt State made some awesome chicken.

I spent the weekend refreshing my memory on why most Christian music is horrible. It has been a long time since I have actually listened to it, and none of it has changed. My mind went numb...I promise. Sorry Matt for putting you through that.

Well...I guess that is all for now... I don't really have much time to do anything.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Tony was can still ask questions...

But I think I will answer the few who have commented. (anon, Thom, Asher, Lindsey)

Edit...Here is Tony's:

Tony: These are some good questions.

*why would you want to leave a perfectly good job and go back to school?

I am still at the job...and I'm working in the MAC and private my money situation really hasn't changed. It is a good's a great job. I am thirsty to learn more though. My brain needs some excersise. Plus, if I go to grad school, they will pay me for that will be my job. Then, one day when I finish up...oh who am I kidding? Am I ever going to be done with school? I like it. I am's the time for me to be doing these things.

*if you could have any animal as a pet (independent of limiting factors, i.e. size, allergy, noise, etc.
this is only based on desire) what would it be and what would you name it?

I would have a sphinx that what they are called? And I would name it Hairy.

*what do you want? what do you think would make you truly happy in life? are they the same? why or why not?

Wow...this question (or 3 questions) could probably take up a whole post. I would say what I truly want is to be able to be happy no matter what circumstance come along in my life. I want to be able to keep a sense of joy about me. To be simple, and be completly happy. I want to find whatever I am looking for right now on this journey we call life...Oh and I want Christian unity...that's a big one.
On a less serious note, this is also what I want:
*to still be in bed
*to move out of Indiana for a bit (Virginia maybe? ;))
*for the day to be over so I can go camping.
*guys to not be so weird
*Easter to hurry up and get here (I guess that is sort of serious)
*My homework to magically do itself
*World peace :)

Now what would make me truly happy? Well that sort of goes with what I want...huh? I think that to be truly happy, I need to get rid of little vices that hold onto me...i.e. worrying. I need to cling to Matthew 6 and not worry about tomorrow...I know I will be truly happy if I just trust God and what he wants. Now...if only he could call me up and tell me clearly exactly what he wants me to do...that would be great. Are what I want and what would make me happy the same? Sort of...because don't we think that if we have what we want we will be happy? Maybe I will write more on this another time...

*To the anonymous poster that wants to know why I want to be catholic...Who are you? Since you asked "why do you want to become catholic?" I will answer...I have been catholic for a long time. catholic means universal church...and I would consider myself part of that universal church. Maybe you should have asked "why do you want to become Catholic?" and I do believe I said ask me 3 questions.

Thom: What a great movie....

What is your name?
Sir Robin of Camelot.
What is your quest?
To seek the Holy Grail.
What is the capital of Assyria?
I don't know that! Auuuuuuuugh (and over the cliff i go...)

Asher: Homestar runner is good stuff...but I think I am going to answer these on my own...

How do you be so short?
*I answer that with how do you be so tall?
Wiggity Wack?
*dude...this question is wack.
Is my under-wears showing?
*I think we all know the answer to this one... I would have to say yes Asher...your underwear is showing. If you don't believe here

Lindsey: your questions are so random...I love it.

if you like cottage cheese, how do you like it? like describe if you like it creamy or not creamy?
*I like cottage cheese...with no fruit on top...and only sometiemes. I'm not sure what creamy cottage cheese is like. I love lasagna that has cottage cheese in it.

does it bother you if people at fast food restraunts forget to put condiments, like jelly (lol.brian trivett.), in your to-go sacks?
*not really. Only if they forget to put the sour cream in my sack from wendy's. I like it in my chili. I don't use a lot of condiments though. Now...if I ordered a jelly biscuit...I would hope that there would be jelly in it.

how does strawberries sound right now? man, i must be hungry.
*I could use a you have any?
name five or ten people in your life who have had the most impact on your character in helping you become who you are right now...or who you love greatly and whom you've learned a lot from.
*man lindsey..this one is hard.
I'm going to lump them as one...Josh and Tyana...they rock my world!
Brian Scheidler...I have learned so much from him....
Brian Trivett...he has been there for me for a long time
Rat Masher! (matt rasure) he's so smart
Tony Laschon...I've learned a lot from him...he's so cool...I hope to learn tons more

Keep the questions coming...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

let's try this out...

I'm too lazy to write anything today sooo...

Ask me any 3 questions you want. I'll do my best to answer them :)

Monday, September 19, 2005

Sunday morning rain is falling

Ok, I know it's monday...but the rain is still falling. What a monday it is. I have to go down to IUPUI here in a few to tutor some chemistry. That should be interesting. I haven't looked at anything chemistry in about 2.5 years.

Check this out:

I think that this poster is great. This poster had gained worldwide attention. Even my dad likes it. He hung one up on the wall. Now that's great. It makes me laugh a little. That's Fr. Meyer in the picture. He is a priest at Our Lady of Greenwood. My friend Melissa actually designed it. Go her! I wonder if people are looking at it and thinking "sweet...I think I want to be a priest." It sort of is supposed to be showing the priesthood in a new k...that's all I have to say about that I guess. I just thought you guys all would enjoy seeing the poster.

*I went to a cookout at the archbishop's house on saturday. I got to see Fr. Meyer (the matrix priest) play some tetherball. I even got to partake in a game of it myself. It's been a while since I have played that. Actually I may not have ever played a real game. I may have been like Napoleon and played by myself. I was pretty much a loser. :). Anyway...I beat Eric, and that's all that matters.

*I got to meet some german guys. That was fun. They have good accents. I felt pretty much like a stud (I don't really know if that's the right word to use) though. Jessica had said something about going to the Latino festival. It happened that the German guys were going to go too. The said something about me giving them a call when I got there...I said yeah that's cool, and all three of them had their phones out waiting for my number. It made me laugh. Anyway, I got the number of one of them, and that was the one that mattered. Sigh...he was cute. Ha. I salsa danced for a second at the festival. Bernie made me. That kid is crazy.

*Oh! at the picnic...2 priests were I think ready to confirm me right then and there. It really took me back to Baptist camp days. I was talking to Fr. Meyer and Fr. McCarthy about my R.C.I.A. class. We were talking about the possibility (if I so chose to even become Catholic) of being confirmed before next Easter. That would be super sweet. Fr. McCarthy said something about being at the Archbishops house and then something about having the oil in his trunk. Fr. Meyer got this look of excitement on his face and said "Really?" Fr McCarthy looked at me and said "Our you ready to except the Lord Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Saviour?" That took me straight back to a flashback. Anyway...I wasn't dad would have freaked...some friends would have freaked...and I think it would have been a bit much for the picnic, don't you think? think they were joking...

k...i have to tutor now...bye!

Friday, September 16, 2005

I wonder how Aaron Carter's career is doing?

*That, my friends, was one of the many topics at lunch yesterday. Anybody have a clue about that? I guess we could google it...but seriously? It's Aaron Carter. Well, now I'm curious...I have to google it...hold on. OK...I guess he is in some movie...Supercross. That's about all I have got for you. Did he really ever have a career? The most I remember hearing about him was something about Lindsay Lohan and Hillary Duff fighting over him. Oh! the drama. Did how is career was going really ever matter? I think not...

*I ask you guys this...if you are someone who is obsessive about flipping their mattress...and you want to flip it the same way everytime so you didn't have to remember which way to flip it next to utilize every inch of your there a way to do that? hmmm....think about the math...see what you come up with...I'll hit you back next time with the answer. I know the suspense is killing you. I know that these sentences made as much sense as the teachers on Peanuts. whatever.

*I was thinking last night about a paper I wrote my sophomore year of high school. I am going to look for it. Maybe I'll post it on here sometime. I used to be big into reading about creation science. Now...I am more into looking at the evolution side. The paper I did was on why creationism should be taught in public schools. It basically was more of an evolution bashing paper. Good stuff. I have read it from time to time over the years...and it always makes me chuckle. Something else that makes me chuckle is when i say I really like Darwin...and people give me the look of death. Now that's priceless. Priceless!

I wanted to leave you with something random...I've got abstract algebra on the google I I searched for abstract algebra...and this is what i got...

What??? That's not abstract algebra...oh well....

Do I make any sense at all? I think my brain is just out there somewhere...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

daily that's just crazy.

I think I am going to just make this post random. (as if that is something different...most of my posts are random)

*It's weird...I'm single. I haven't been single in forever. Kind of cool...kind of not...because the consequence of being single is that I am not dating C. Brian...but I should just come to terms with the fact that he is a guy and sometimes guys are jerks...and he is just being one. . C. Brian...if you read this...even if you are a are an awesome one...:)

*Math is exciting...that's weird too. I shouldn't be getting excited about this stuff. I was doing my abstract algebra homework and I was really excited that I was just doing proofs like they were nothing. What's that about? Then...I was tutoring at the MAC...and i was helping this guy out with his Calc II...and I was super excited to do math problems on the whiteboard. The MAC has a whole wall that is a whiteboard...and that's just cool. What's not cool is the excitement I get when I can integrate by substitution...or when I can do an exact differential equation...weird.

*Speaking of that whiteboard...last week I was showing this girl how to prove that a limit is equal to whatever. (If you want to know how to do this yourself...just see this post) I told her i was going to do it on the whiteboard because it's "pretty much the coolest thing ever." The girl was kind of weird...and a little rude...and she said. "you think that it is the coolest thing ever?" as though I was being serious or something. I looked at her and said "well I's not the coolest thing ever..." Then she asked me if it was better than sex. WTH? (that's what the heck...I stole it from Laura Hash...I thought it was funny)

*K so I am going to go to lunch now...

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

funny thing in the news the other day...

*The other day, while I was on my lunch break, I was watching the news. They were interviewing some guy about a license branch closing in Gary, IN. I think that it is kind of random that they would close the one license branch in Gary. I mean, that is a pretty good sized city. I guess that the residents of Gary will have to drive about 4-6 miles out of Gary to get to a branch. Ok...that's not the funny thing... While they were interviewing this guy...the news guy asked him what the impact would be for the people of Gary. The interviewee (is that a word) said that it would really put a strain on the people. It would be really hard for those without transporation to get th the BMV. me crazy...but why do you go to the BMV? Seems that it is for transporation licensing...right? So you most likely would have transportation to get there.... I don't think he thought before that comment.

*I started tutoring privately yesterday. I have been tutoring in the MAC...and then an oppurtunity came up to tutor a lady in math. Sweet... I definitely need more people to tutor. I am going to tutor her 2 hours a week...1 in math...and 1 in chemistry...and I will make $40 a week. I am charging on the cheap side...sooo send people my way. I wish I would have discovered the gold mine that is private tutoring earlier...

*K...that's all for now.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

God and Science...take 2

I used to be a big fan of using science to try to prove things in the Bible. I was big into reading about creationism and the science behind that and all that jazz. Then one day, I realized that it didn't really matter. We didn't need science to believe the Bible. Still..we spend time doing just that. I remember thinking about the possessed people that Jesus healed. I would wonder if maybe they weren't really possessed but instead they were epileptic or something. I asked somebody about that and they said something about that maybe that could be the case...but why don't you take the Bible for what it says? I thought...hmmm...that's a good point. I watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose this last weekend. I must say that it was a pretty good movie. It wasn't so much about the exorcism as it was about a battle of believes. It was a battle of science versus God...of the real versus the supernatural... I thought it was really well done. It reminded me a lot of my days of wanting to prove the Bible with science. I guess it is hard to be a scientist and want to take the Bible by faith. Scientists tend to be pretty analytical and we want proofs for things. It definitely is hard to be a scientist and be a straight up "the world was created in seven days" creationist. I know I used to I am totally not. I think that microevolution is amazing...and I am glad that God gave it to us as a way to adapt. I remember being at Cumberland...and Dr. Hancock was talking about evolution. The whole class totally clammed up. They didn't want to hear it. I love hearing about evolution. It is one of my favorite things to study. Dr. Hancock said something that will always stick with me. He said...I don't care if you believe it or not...but if you are going to argue against it... I ask you to do this one thing...and that is to know your enemies...That Dr. Hancock...he was pretty cool.

Ok...I totally don't think this post made any sense...but oh well.

*I am going to start private tutoring today. I am going to try to find more people to tutor. Somebody told me I shouldn't charge any less than $20 an hour...I felt bad even asking that...but the lady was totally fine with maybe for the next person I will try to up it...hmmm. This could be a gold mine.

*I keep remembering my dreams...I never remember my's weird.

*Have a good day!

Monday, September 12, 2005

of God and science... was going to be a deep post...then I changed my maybe next time...

For now...

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.


also...did any of you watch the hurrican benefit concert on Friday? If so...did you happen to hear somebody say "George Bush doesn't care about midgets" ? I heard it...but I wasn't paying attention and didn't hear who said it. I don't know if it was the guy playing the piano or if it was Chris Rock...because right after the statement it cut to Chris Rock. Weird...and inappropriate...but also funny...

Thanks to Josh for this hilarious picture...

It really made me laugh... props to the sweet people that actually put a window air conditioner in their van...

Colts won their opening game!!!

Pacers start playing next month!!!!!!!!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me...

Wow..that song truly is terrible. TERRIBLE!!!!

*I have a quote of the day for today. Brian T. was quoting one of his friends today, and it made me laugh.

"It's not that were blaming Bush for the hurricane, we're blaming him for the slow response time."

REALLY??? I hope that nobody is blaming him for the hurricane because that is a truly idiotic thing to do. As far as the slow response time...I am not sure we should be blaming him for that either...I think there are a lot of people to blame.

*I was in the science building last night and I walked by a group of students. They were talking about their retainer (or is it maintainer?) issues. I thought to that is a horrible conversation to be having. I walked by 5 minutes later, and it was still going on. That's when you know you are in the science building

*I had something I was going to vent about on here because I was sort of stewing about it this morning...but now I am over it. All I have to say is we need to not worry so much about the differnent ways people worship and realize that we are all worshiping and there is no set formula on how to hold a high respect for God and worship him. If you want to do it in be it...but you can't say that it is better to go to Latin is equally as good I do believe.

*I had a shot last night. It was absolutely horrible. NEVER EVER EVER drink a liquid cocaine. If you have drank that or you know anything about it...what is in it?


*I did that because it seems that whenever I mention his name, he maybe I should do it again...


I really wanted to show you how big of a nerd I was. Actually, I just can't contain my excitment that I finally understand something I learned 5 years ago. I never quite could grasp the definition of a limit...I could find a limit but I couldn't show you why it was true. Now, thanks to working in the Mac and thanks to my numerical methods class...I will be able to also.

Prove Lim(x→2) 3x+1=7.
*By the definition of a limit, we know |f(x) - L| < ε whenever 0< |x-a| < δ.

*L = 7, f(x) = 3x+1, a = 2

So |3x + 1 - 7| < ε whenever 0< |x-2| < δ
|3x - 6| < ε whenever 0< |x-2| < δ
3|x - 2| < ε whenever 0< |x-2| < δ
|x - 2| < ε/3 whenever 0< |x-2| < δ

*Now, we can use δ= ε/3, and we want to show that this works.

*ε = 3δ

So 3|x - 2| < ε
3|x - 2| <
3|x - 2| < 3(ε/3)
3|x - 2| < ε It does!! So Lim(x→2) 3x+1=7

and the tsks! are optional :)

I know that everybody was just dying to know all that.

*Tony and Matt...I hope you appreciate this.

Thursday, September 08, 2005


A few months back, I was at Walmart with Tyana. It's the cool place to hang, you know? I came across a random tract that somebody left behind. If you are not sure what a tract is or if you have never been blessed enough to be given one...below is a picture of one (actually the very same one), and if you click on it, you can actually read it.

I tried to save Tyana's soul by reading the tract, but she is pretty much a heathen and wanted no part of it. Then, we went to Starbuck's (where Josh was working) and when I went to pay, I tried to give him the tract. I then decided to read it to him. He didn't understand of "asking Jesus into your heart." I guess tip number 5 would have been good to use. After that, I tried to give it to C. Brian because he's Catholic and his soul definitely needs a little KJV saving (said in jest). Then, just a little while ago, I was in The Ripple, and a guy was preaching on the corner and gave me a tract. I remember when I was little; I always wanted to have tracts with me so that if I ever had the opportunity, I could pass them out. I don't think I ever did. All this to say that my dad went to church on Sunday night and he came home with a bulletin. One of the inserts in the bulletin was on how to use tracts. I thought it was hilarious. (Just so you know, I am not making fun of people that use tracts...they just aren't my thing at all...reminds me of my Baptist roots)

So here we go: (be sure to read the explanations...they will be sure to make you chuckle)

How to Use Tracts

1. Pray.
You cannot win anyone to Christ; neither can a tract. Only the Holy Spirit can do that.

2. Give appropriate tracts.
Always carry several different types of tracts with you so that you can match the message to the person.

3. Talk...and listen.
This will help you learn the person's needs and stimulate interest

4. Make eye contact and smile.
Genuine smiles are rare these days, but they can create an opening for giving a tract.

5. Don't force tracts on people.
Distribute a dozen tracts carefully, prayerfully, and judiciously rather than handing out a hundred indiscriminately.

6. Use top-quality tracts.
Invest in the best tracts available. You and your Lord will be judged by the equipment you use.

7. Keep your tracts in good condition.
Make sure your tracts are clean and fresh when you hand them out.

8. Use positive tracts.
Our job is not to put others down, but to lift Jesus up by presenting the positive truth of the gospel.

9. Find new ways to use tracts.
Be original. Never leave home without a tract.

10. Give out a tract each day.
You will be amazed as you see the Lord bless your effects.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

gotta love myspace

*Yesterday, I was on If you don't know what it is, just go to the site and look at it. I decided to search for Suburban Baptist School and who do I find but none other than a friend from elementary school! I probably remember this girl more than anybody. I saw her...I saw her name...and I thought could it be? It was! It was Heather! The very same girl that I had got sent the principal's office for pulling her hair. The very same girl (as she reminded me) who I gave a mickey mouse watch to and then took it back. The very same girl who was the first to introduce me at all to this thing called Catholicism. That's right friends...she's Catholic. What a great time for her to fall in my life...huh? I remember getting in a fight with her once because she said you had to eat Jesus when you went to mass. I didn't understand how you could eat Jesus and I was really mad about it. I remember also that when we drew pictures of what we wanted to be when we grew up...she drew a picture of a nun. I have always wondered where she was. Well...she is in Texas. Crazy! I love it! Hopefully...I will be able to keep in contact with her...I don't have very many friends (or any) that I had in elementary school.

*I can't get on xanga right now and I don't know why. try to go to if you can get there. If you can...comment and let me know. That way I will know if my computer is screwy.

*That's right kids...I probably spend too much time online. That's what happens when a computer is placed in front of you and it is connected to the internet and you are at work and you have "a few" minutes to kill.

*Now...I think that is all I am going to write about for now because Asher posted something about me on his blog...and it made me laugh. So...I am going to rip it from his site and put it here. Read away!

Dangit. Nothing's been going right since Rose left for class. I meant to ask her where the link was to her dancing so I could link all yall's who stop by to it. Then I wouldn't update my page for like a month; that way I could make sure everyone saw it. It's pretty funny. Cute, funny... and definitely random as hell. Then I would collect a survey to see who thought what of it. Anyway, now that's not gonna happen cause I needed to tend to this column, now the column is fruokerd w/ the fraction collector being broken, I don't have time to hang around and do it myself... unless I come back at like 11 tonight but I'll probably be really tired and won't want to, and Rose left when I went to tend to the column. Screw this, I'm going home. I've got better things to do.

Rose is thinking about moving away, and this makes me sad. She's not going to anytime soon to my knowledge, but still the thought of it is upsetting for several reasons. Let's take a moment to reflect on the wonderment that is Rose.

She likes sweet corn on the cob. Look at the excitement in those eyes. Oh yea, she likes sepia pictures too. This was on Rose's birthday when we all went to the state fair and watched the cloggers and had beef on a stick... and tried to get Rose to stand under the Grand Champion Heffer sign while we took a picture. It would've been funny cause she only weighs like a buck and a real competitive heffer usually weighs over a ton. Oh yea... and she's not a cow. In fact that would've been funny on several levels... moving along.

She's smart, she's got a pretty voice though she doesn't like "showing it off"... more like she's shy about it, she always says there's no drama in her life but it's more like she just has tunnel vision for what she's looking for or what she wants. It's pretty funny; she just doesn't notice the drama. I envy her for that; I notice the drama but I always just try to not get caught up in it. Sometimes it gets offended and punches your roommate, then you have to pull them out of it. I also seem to absorb the drama for her; I guess I should've realized it this time: (story)

It was sometime this summer, we were at Peppers, where Rose always hangs out on the weekend. This was the Peppers in the Ripple, but Rose is to be found at any given Peppers on any given Thursday-Saturday night. She was dancin a jig on the dance floor (wish I had that video) and some dude got all up on her. I had run slater sprints about 4 hours prior to the time and I was in no mood to dance... nor were my legs. So I'm leaning on the bar, her boyfriend's on stage or I'm sure he would've done something, but I wasn't really paying attention to anything except the music and my drink; the latter getting very little, I was more interested in just relaxing. Then Rose yells at me from across the dance floor and motions for me to get over there. She had been trying to coax me into dancing all night, and I explained how tired my legs were and that I didn't want to dance, so I just shake my head. Then she gets a more serious look and motions again, and I'm like okay whatever. When I get over there she's like, "Stand right here." I'm thinking sweet! I get to be a pole! Poles get danced on! No, more like Rose had strategically placed an unsuspecting Asher in between her and this smelly redneck dude w/ a patch on his head who looked like he'd gotten in a fight earlier that night.


Needless to say, I thanked Rose as the guy bumped into me twice. He had at least two friends with him that I could see, but at that point I really didn't care; I told Rose that she was going to bail me out when I went to jail, which she said wasn't going to happen. As usual, she was right, but she was close to not being right; aside from some disdainful looks and the two bumps, the guy really didn't do anything. He was a skinny guy... that made me a little nervous. See, people think just cause you're bigger than someone that you'll be the victor in a fight. There are many cases where this is indeed true; wrestling, cage matches, boxing, etc.... fighting venues with rules. Street fights, no rules, skinny guys carry weapons or find weapons real quick and use them in the dirtiest way possible if their opponent is bigger, and sometimes just because they're skinny.

Anyway, I'm straying from the point. The point is, the douche represented drama, Rose represented herself, and I represented myself. She always wonders why my life has so much drama. It's cause I'm blocking it from her! I mean just randomly there are fights outside my door, people wreckin shit, going to jail, tires getting slashed, baby's mamas cryin. That is a lot of random drama. Too much for one person, so that's my theory. Somehow I'm absorbing the drama Rose is supposed to be getting. Thanks for keeping my life exciting Rose.

Wow that was a helluvatangent. Rose is cool for a variety of reasons and maybe when I get the link for the dance I'll make a list to follow... since basically my life isn't going to change too much over the next week.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

where to start? I have so much to write about.

Wow...what a weekend. I did a lot this weekend to sort of keep myself busy. I did a pretty good job i think. It was pretty interesting at points and I thought I would share a little.

*Friday: I decided that I wanted to have a girl's night. The trouble with this is that most of my friends are not girls. friend Jessica and I went and had some dinner and then came home and then Clint, Tim and Derrick came over. Clint and I went to the store and purchased some beverages...and then we went back and all watched UHF and ate icecream. Later on...Jessica left, so it was just me and three guys. So much for a girl's night. Then, Jay calls and he needs a ride. Turns out his car is somewhere random and he is pretty drunk. I have never seen him drunk before. It was a little weird. We picked him up...and went back to his car and I drove it back to my place. We placed him in front of my Game Cube playing Galaga and he was content. He does better than I do even when he was drunk! Ok...that was basically the extent of our crazy night. I guess it really wasn't that crazy, but hey! I really wasn't in the mood to leave the house. I passed up going to see Rick Springfield to just sit around and be lazy!

*Saturday: I woke up and I felt like I needed to do something. My mind has been running like crazy and I just wanted to get out. Sooo...I got on my bicycle. It was awesome! The day was beautiful, the Monon Trail is one of the best things ever! There were trees and water and everything and it was just a great time to get outside and just think. I think it was an amazing time of worship. I got a bit carried away though, and it turned into a 20 mile bike ride. I came home and did some homework...gasp! Then I called up my friend Lynsey because it has been forever since I had gotten to hang out with her and I really did want that girl's night. I went down to the south side and went to texas roadhouse. I had a magarita and talked with Jessie, Lynsey, and Sharna. It was a Chuck E. Cheese reunion night...ha. For those of you who don't know, I started back in september of 98 and still really havent left. I havent actually worked since last fall...but I still am an employee. Jessie has been there longer than I have, and Lynsey and Sharna aren't too far behind. After Texas Roadhouse, we went to Peppers. Not my Broadripple Peppers...but Peppers 2...the southside one. I am not a big fan of southside bars...but whatever...sometimes Greenwood people don't really want to leave Greenwood. Daniel and his friend Dawn met up with us. (Daniel is also a fellow ex-Chuck E. Cheese worker). Derrick also stopped by for a bit. We saw a couple more Chuck E. Cheese people there. I also got a margarita there. It was on special for 2.50. That should have been a red flag. It was awful! So the night ended...I went back to Lynsey's and stayed there.

Sunday: Went to mass. I went to the 10:30 one. I didn't know that the 12:00 one had a praise band. That will be the one I will go to next week. I like the more contemporary masses because I actually know the songs! The mass was still good. I really like that church because I can ride my bike there. I like to ride my bike. I went home..and took a nap...then I ran some errands and stopped by my friend Meredith's house to talk for a bit...she's pretty cool..and then I went to small group. Josh and Tyannnaanana brought us pizza from Cincy. I am sad that they are moving there. They will soon have a post coming dedicated to them. It was good times...Speaking of small group, the picture below is just an example of the fun times we have there. I think this picture is hilarious. Who knew Josh could play the trumpet and the guitar at the same time?

After small group, Brian T. (the guy in the orange) and I went to ribfest where Jay met up with us. We had a little bit of food, but we were pretty stuffed from the pizza. HOOTIE AND THE BLOWFISH WAS THERE! It was a free concert. I wanted them to play Little Brother..and they did. What a good time. After that, Brian T. came over and we hung out for a few...and drank some Pucker and Sprite...I know..we are crazy. That was nice. It has been a while since I had really hung out with him. I am a pretty crappy friend sometimes.

Monday: Wow...this post is huge. I decided i would go to mass if I woke up in time. I I rode my bike over there. I have been going pretty much as often as I can. I was sitting there with all these thoughts running through my head. I was noticing little things that were going on and thinking bad thoughts...maybe I don't really like it at all and I have just been trying was kind of weird because I never think like that. Satan was going at me. The priest gets up to do the gospel reading...and what verses were they? The verses in Matthew 6 about worrying. They have been going through my head for a few weeks now and I had been thinking wouldn't it be nice if those were the gospel reading sometime? That would probably do a lot to ease my mind. I about jumped out of my seat! I had a huge goofy grin on my face. To hear the priest read "Don't worry about tomorrow, today has enough troubles of its own" was great. Then, it was time to do the closing hymn. It was How Great Thou Art. That is one of my favorite hymns. It was awesome, and I left with such a peace surrounding me. I rode my bike home, and I just sang How Great Thou Art the whole way home. I must say that God is pretty cool. After mass..I was pretty lazy for a while...but then I decided to do some laundry. I really needed to. I did five loads and I don't think I have even made a dent. C. Brian called. I had decided he was never going to call me again and I had a few things I wanted to get off my chest, so that was good. I hope to get to hang out with him tonight. Brian T. came over a bit later so I could help with some math...that's right...I am a math genious! After he left...I just crashed and went to bed...

Wooo...what a weekend!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Christ and his church...can't get much more bling than the church founded on the rock!

That title is dedicated to my friend Tony. (Pictured below) It's the title of his blog.

Girls! He's single!

Tony left for Virginia today. He was only 4 hours away from me...but now, if I want to probably would be best to fly. He is going to be working with the missioners or something like that. Maybe I'll just move to does that sound Tony? Ha...I probably could find a university out there...right? Tony is part of this crazy journey I am on. He is a fellow math major from Cumberland College. We studied together a few times in college, but never really hung out or anything like that. I was a crazy baptist girl and he was a partying Catholic. :) We belonged to two different worlds. After college, we somehow got in touch. He has basically been out of the country the last couple years doing mission work. He has grown so crazy much! I like to refer to him as the Catholic super hero now. I have got to see him more in the last couple months than I have seen him since I transferred away from Cumberland. He has been quite the encouragement and quite the evangelist! He gives me all kinds of links and such the like so I can read about the Catholic faith. He calls me the Catholic non-Catholic. That makes me laugh. Anyway...I remember telling him a while back that I listen to EWTN...and his reply was EWTN is pimp. :) Oh Tony! He definitely keeps me on the ball in searching for whatever it is I am searching for. I just wanted to introduce you to some of the characters you may see along the way of this journey. I think he fits next on the timeline of it. He really started giving me all kinds of info when I told him I wanted to learn a bit more about Catholicism. This probably was back in November or December. I wanted to actually learn about it instead of just listening to all the brainwashed stuff I had been taught. I was reading A New Kind of Christian by Brian McClaren. (He isn't Catholic but the book made me really want to look into the Catholic Church). Sooo....Hold on to your seatbelts...because starting from the end of December to now...the ride has been pretty crazy! I'll tell you more later.

*I probably will have to go backwards in the timeline to introduce some other great people (who also will be moving away from me :( ..) but since Tony left today...I thought it was fitting.

*I really hope that things will calm down in New Orleans. It's really sad. I wonder if there is anything else going on in this country.

*Gas prices are ridiculous. I think I am going to boycott driving...My bike can get me there!